Why Can't I Learn How to Say No?
Well it has certainly been a while since my last post. Don't get me wrong, I have every intention to keep up with this whole blogging thing. But over the last few weeks, I just couldn't find the motivation to sit down and write. I struggle to find a topic worth discussion and then when I do find a worthy topic, my mind often creates a laundry list of reasons to add to the con list of writing the post. Most of the reasons stem from laziness. But some of it comes from all the new and exciting opportunities I've been pursuing over the last few weeks. Let's talk it out.
Here's a rundown of things I've been working on. The Mad Fit Podcast is alive and well, please check it out! I've been working on my photography skills which is useful in all sorts of ways. I've also been in contact with other influencers to collaborate with future projects. I've been brainstorming the future of this blog and what kind of posts I plan to make for the rest of the year. I'm doing well at my job which also means that more responsibility is coming my way. On top of all that, I've been trying to maintain a healthy routine. I've tried to get at least 5-6 workouts in per week while eating as clean as I can through it all.
I am so grateful for all the opportunity in my life at the moment, but I'm spreading my life pretty thin right now. The question is how much time and energy can I truly dedicate to these new opportunities? I'm so use to giving my 100 percent to everything I do, but that isn't sustainable. In addition, is it just me or does time seem to speed up the older you get? I honestly feel like my life is stuck on fast forward since I turned 30. On top of that, there are areas of my life that I must consider more of a priority. My relationships and my health come first. If you add my job to the mix, that leaves only a fraction of my time and energy each week to pursue these opportunities as a fitness influencer.
I think this picture taken of me at the Vita Coco Event portrays how I've felt over the last several months. I have so many things up in the air at the moment, and I'm trying desperately to keep my act going. But more and more shiny green coconuts keep being thrown my direction! I've always been good at juggling, but I have to convince myself that even I have my limits. It is time to learn how to really prioritize my time and energy. Then it's time to learn an even harder lesson...HOW TO SAY NO!! Admittedly, I am a people pleaser and if I think I can do it, I will try regardless of the effect on my life. That is NOT sustainable, and it's time to practice what I preach.
In the mean time, I plan to continue this blog. If anything, this is a tool of catharsis and I don't normally get to communicate these thoughts and feelings in any other way. I don't know if this is me speaking personally, or if I'm being that prototypical male stereotype that resists the urge to share his feelings and emotions. Regardless, I think writing and sharing these thoughts is good practice in being a better overall person. How can you truly relate to people if you aren't willing to share your thoughts or how you feel? It takes way more courage to be vulnerable than it does to pretend to be strong or like nothing is bothering you. It's a lesson I plan to learn in part by writing this blog. Let's see how far I will go.
Thank you for reading =)